so i judge parents...

and i probably (okay definitely) still will once i'm a parent

and that's my confession for the day. i know people say you can't really understand being a parent until you are in those shoes so you shouldn't be so critical. well critical is my middle name and trust me, once i'm a parent i am 99% sure i'll still feel this way.
certain things just annoy me and i promise i'll never do them. and if i do i really want someone to let me know. kids aren't always fun to be around...sometimes they cry and honestly are annoying and you just want to leave. but they are just babies and they don't know anything else. so you deal with it. i have a slight paranoia that i might never be a mother (and i'm only 23...although part of that plays into the whole meeting the boy craziness) so i'd like to think that i'll try and remember how i feel now when i feel that way later. and i'll never take my kids or the fact that i get to be a parent for granted. now i'm not saying that i want to be with my kids every waking moment. don't get me wrong, i know i'll want (and need) a break. and there is nothing wrong with that. and i guess most parents don't take their kids for granted but i just wanted to get this one out.
along the same lines, i guess once you have kids, things change (note the sarcasm people). but i'd like to think i'll still keep my identity as an individual as well as being a couple. kids are important, but so are relationships outside of the kids. so i don't want to be one of those moms (or one of those couples) whose life suddenly revolves around my kids, 24/7. like i want to get a babysitter and go out.