I started this blog a few months ago to share my more creative side. I am still very much so embracing that creative side of myself but recently I've wanted to write about something more and different. I have had a very laid back summer so far, with lots of time for me to not only work through my random creativeness but to read a few books of my choosing. That is something that I haven't really had the time to do in a while and I'm enjoying it quite a bit. I just graduated from college about two months ago but I'll be starting grad school very soon. When I take the time to sit and think about the fact that I have graduated from college, it freaks me out. I really can't believe that chapter of my life is closed. I'm not freaked out about being done with college and (somewhat) moving on with my life though. As my best friend reminded me yesterday, I've been ready to grow up since I was 5. And while that may be a slight exaggeration, I'm ready for this next chapter of my life. I'm just not ready for all of the uncertainty that is sure to come with it. Because while I thought I was prepared for college, I was most definitely not prepared for how things wouldn't work like I had planned. I'm quite the planner and I love my color-coded lists so this came as quite a shock to me. Honestly, its a shock that I'm still working with. While I love my college experience more than anything, it has been nothing like I imagined it would be. But the what-ifs are a dangerous game to play so I'm just going to focus on the present. But back to the whole summer reading thing. One of the books I'm reading is Plan B by Pete Wilson. I've only read through chapter 6 but I have enjoyed it so far. I just finished the chapter on fear of the unknown. It's really amazing how you can read the right thing at exactly the right time. I like reading the same basic concept in a variety of ways. Because while I know that everything is happening with God's timing and in accordance with his perfect plan, it's a whole different thing for me to actually believe and embrace that same thought. The chapter ended with the following thought: " Putting it all, including our fear of the unknown, in the hands of the One who knows everything. And then moving forward because we can trust him." I really like the moving forward idea. I'm not looking to move on from some huge traumatic event, but just to move on in general. I also definitely have a fear of the unknown, it's the planner in me again. I'm trying to avoid thinking about all the things I thought I would have accomplished by now. I like to check things off of my lists so I'm working on accepting that it's okay if some things remain unchecked for the time being. The big challenge will be accepting it if after a few more years they are still unchecked.
I'm sure I'll continue to update with all kinds of crazy crafting adventures but I think I'll be throwing something different in occasionally too.
